I self-injured for about 5 years and I've been clean for about 2 years. It is a choice, but it is not a good one to make. From personal experience, it never helped the problems long term. It may have helped right then, but in reality it only created more problems. I constantly had to hide the cuts and I even have a few scars left even after 2+ years from the time I did it. For me, it was never about wanting to kill myself or even about the pain. It was about self healing. But trust me, there are other ways to make yourself feel better or to gain control over your life or to achieve whatever you are trying to achieve by self harming. I sincerely urge you to seek help and to learn how to cope with stress in healthier ways because I know from experience that this is not a good way to do so. I am not proud of my scars or of what I did, but I managed to overcome it and so can you. Please, get help for this. You can always talk to me about this if you want. My messages are private so no one else will know who you are. You are not alone in this.