Have you ever felt as though you were a terrible failure to yourself??

Been cigarette free for months. I have one overwhelming week. Go away for the weekend and break down and smoke. The lie i told myself was i would only smoke a couple.
By the end of the weekend, i polished off nearly a pack. Now thats all i can think about.

Now i fear, i have to start all over again.

Going for a spirometry tomorrow, and the doc will know. Complete failure.
Sometimes stress will make you do things.

Carlas avatar Life
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More times than I should, I think.

Sofias avatar Sofia Agree +5Reply

Absolutely! Then I have to get to work to take my mind off myself. Sanding and staining windowsills were my target. We have about 55 - I only have about 10 to go. I put my irritation to work for me and I change my patterns so I am not tempted to fall back into my bad habit. Coffee=smoking so go to tea or milk. Milk and cigs ugh.
Most of all I had to stop beating myself up and keep trying. Good luck Carla.

No. But close. And stress will make you do things. Don't quit unless you are 99% sure of success...altho...even trying can be perceived as a success.

Yep! I know that exact feeling well. It took me a lot of tries to quit smoking. You just gotta lift your chin up and start again. You'll get there. :)

I have, and also that I've been a "failure" to others. Neither feeling is good, for damn sure.

What I know with certainty, is that beating oneself up for very long, doesn't help anything one whit.

@Piper2 I have, and also that I've been a "failure" to others. Neither feeling is good, for damn sure. What I...

You are right.
Starting the process again.
I will get it to stick.
Just very disappointed in myself.
No choice but to get over it...

Carlas avatar Carla Agree +5Reply

Hey listen Carla, nicotine is VERY addictive.
Your halfway or more to beating one of the toughest addictions. That's why it's hard, but your already on your way. Keep going 😋

@Daver Hey listen Carla, nicotine is VERY...

Thanks daver.
It is a tough go.
But....i WILL prevail!!

Carlas avatar Carla Agree +1Reply

Now I know that is a lie.

Mashas avatar Masha Agree +1Reply

Oh yeah, especially in finals when you see other people pulling trough but you barely keep up and end up falling down.

I am occasionally displeased with what I do, but never to the extend of evaluating myself as a terrible failure. It is both good and bad that I have always done the best I could at the time, and I take that into account when judging myself.

Sure but I don't need to talkabout the bad things since I am happy with myself most of the time.

Oh I had that kinda day the other day. I am pretty sure if anyone knew or heard what I was thinking someone would have smacked the tar out of me. I feel a 100 percent better but I had to make some personal changes in order to feel that way.

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