2016 was a great year for Death.
I don't think I've ever asked that question, maybe I don't want to tempt God. "Oh, you want to go too? Alright..." Noooooo
I've lost a few acquaintances, a love interest, a couple friends, a guy who was like a brother to me, and my mother. We all die eventually, it's easy to lose sight of that sometimes. If there's a silver lining to losing a friend it's that it reminds me how lucky I am to still be here, and how important it is to cherish the friends and family who are still with me.
Yeah that's normal, I believe that's called survivor guilt. You get over it by accepting it, and finding something positive to look forward to.
The only way I would ever feel any guilt is if I was responsible. One of my closest friends committed suicide while I was in the military. We were both 19. He chose drugs and I chose the Army. We feel bad about what happened but we should never feel guilty. Life isn't always fair.
So you didn't go into the army...your became a Fuller salesperson instead...he demise wasn't drugs but cancer...how would you feel then?
And is it odd that I understand both RL choices?
I'd still fell sad, but no guilt. Doesn't matter what you go into or the cause of someones death. Thats like saying I should feel guilty for everyone who died younger than me.
Maybe it has more impact in someone older than 19....
This week when Jefferson took me to tell me that my best friend was gone I remember screaming that at the top of my lungs. How am I gonna get over it...time. I have spent a few days screaming, crying, and breaking things
I don't ask myself that, just sorry my friend died.
You dont get over it...you learn to live with it.