I think that's fairly common. Don't lose hope. You're doing the right things.
Use this website to count your calories. It's impossible not to lose weight if you stay under the amount for your height unless you have hypothyroidism or some other illness affecting weight. Also, there are drugs for anxiety and depression that cause weight gain. Get a postal scale from the post office to weigh your food. https://www.myfitnesspal.com/
I am.not starting I have been doing this forever
Change takes time, don't expect sudden results just make a healthy life into a habit and in the end you will surprise yourself. You wont achieve nothing if you anxiously await the results.