Time for a discussion on Toxic Relationship. Have you been through one? This counts for abuse of any sort, neglect and violence BUT... also, always being criticised, having your parent(s) tell you "You'll never mount to anything in life," and how other people are better than you / achievement wise?
If unsure but you think you may have been through it, search up parent / child toxic relationship and if it rings a bell holler back at me. I can relate to you. Let's share our pain.