As understandable as that is, don't wish pain upon yourself. That kind of thinking is what leads people to do really irrational things, things that can hurt you a lot more than every bargained for. Even if you feel "sheltered" it's best to let life (and pain) come at it's own pace or you'll end up with much more than you can handle...
I know what you mean... I want something to happen, even if it's something bad.
As understandable as that is, don't wish pain upon yourself. That kind of thinking is what leads people to do really irrational things, things that can hurt you a lot more than every bargained for. Even if you feel "sheltered" it's best to let life (and pain) come at it's own pace or you'll end up with much more than you can handle...