lol Sounds like you had a bad marriage, but there are a lot of us who have and had happy marriages.
I did have the thought once when very young, that marriage was a kind of death. Other than that... I have no idea what you're claiming there. I have no doubt that marriage is not like that at ALL, for countless people who have chosen it.
If I would have stayed in a few relationship it would have been
If you're male, being married is basically essential for your long term survival. Married men live an average of 17 years longer than single men.