This year will only be my second Holloween celebrated ever. I want some candy.
It would suck so much to get pregnant at a young age.
Or show them how it feels when they're put in a situation where someone else is controlling their fate.
Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't see it. :P But I was just thinking a lot about the death penalty today.
Depends on my mood. Usually this only applies when I'm in on of my super-seductress flirty moods, like at a party or something. In that case I'm viewing the person as a prize for my own ego and not as an actual human being and those things never last.
If I actually really like someone as a person, have gotten to know them and respect and admire them, then I hate games. I respect the person enough to back off if they're not interested and move on, even if I don't really want to. But if they ARE interested, I want them to be upfront with their feelings about me so I'm not stuck in this constant state of wondering.
That was such a hard lesson for me to learn.
Dude, I love it when that happens. Then I see which buddies of mine share my porn interests.
Eh, whatever, teenagers are always going to talk and think a lot about sex. Everyone goes through it and eventually grows out of it. Same thing with swearing. I don't think either thing is too big a deal.
But hey, who could blame 'em? Sex is fucking awesome.
I see swirls and shapes of colors when I close my eyes. Though it's crazier if I'm meditating or something.
But yeah, from my personal experience, it's harder to fathom emotional and sexual abuse from physical (not that there's any "right" way to feel, we all have different perceptions.)
Physical abuse is easier to deal with because it is so obvious. (Oh, she hit me. Hitting me is wrong. I have proof.) Yes, it still hurts that someone can do that to you, that you can be made vulnerable like that but since it's the most blatant and understood form of abuse in this culture, it's easier to recover. Emotional abuse on the other hand is often shrugged off even though those experiences form how you think and function as a human being. Also, since people may shrug it off, it can be harder to recover.
Incidentally, I would like to point out that I am a strong advocate in taking control of your life experiences and not wallowing in pain any longer than you have to, however, I do also believe we also need to be sensitive to those that are still in a rough situation. We can't expect someone who is dealing with being attacked (on any level)on a daily basis to handle things as well as someone who is in a relatively "good" situation.
I do not agree.
I used to live with my mother who was an emotionally and physically abusive, alcoholic Jehovah Witness. It was quite the combination.
But at age 12, as she was punching the back of my head and screaming that I was a "worthless, good-for-nothing little shit" because my room was dirty, it was definitely the words that affected me more than her hitting me. She was my mother, a person who was supposed to love me unconditionally so why did she so often denigrate me and ignore my needs. Why wasn't I good enough for my own mother? It had been so ingrained in me since day one that there was something wrong with ME, it thrust me into this whirlpool of self-doubt, depression, self-esteem issues, self-harm and relating interpersonally to others.
Emotional abuse fucks with your head, especially when it's coming from someone who is inherently supposed to love you. Even after being out of the situation for two years, I'm still discovering that I still have some negative thought processes relating back to her, that I have to look at and fix. I couldn't keep a relationship for the longest time, it took up to a couple of months ago for me to go back and reprogram my mentality.
NO. DON'T DO IT.
Back in my irresponsible drug days, I snorted a couple Adderalls and this super strong prescription sleeping pill... such a miserable experience. My body was absolutely exhausted and I just wanted to pass the fuck out but my mind was on overdrive. Every time I tried to fall asleep I kept thinking about all these abstract, awesome ideas but I wasn't even awake enough to enjoy them. NEVER doing that (or any pill/snorting thing) again. Ugh.
I know I can be shallow at times, but it's not necessarily about looks. When I walk around the city or school, just glancing at passerbys, everyone looks average to me. It's after I take a couple minutes to observe their behavior that it registers to me whether or not I find them attractive. When I see someone act really confident, charming, powerful and happy, I begin to notice how attractive they are and it grows in my mind. If someone acts insecure, pessimistic, boring and obnoxious, they start to look gross to me.
A good example would be my now-best friend. When I first met him, he was drunk and felt like putting on an assholish persona. He was running around and being an obnoxious prick and to me, he looked disgusting but my chick-friend who I came to the party, with still found him to be really hot.
Anyway, time went on, he apologized and I actually got to know him as a human being. Now, I find him to be very physically attractive, though I wouldn't want to date him.
So yeah, looks are important to me but I see the looks based on how someone acts.
I really wish he's a comedian and him running for office is just some outlandish prank on politics.