I am what some may call, mentally deviant.
I'm a visual thinker most of the time. I'm caught somewhere in between INTJ and INTP. I argue with myself a lot it's all kinds of ridiculous.
I have somewhat of a vision in progress of how the world should be, and I don't think it's ever going to be that way, so sometimes I rage. A lot of the time I am exploring ways to let go of things that are inherently a waste of time.
I really enjoy art and music to an extent that I can relate to it. I both love and hate people at the same time. I think everyone has a lot of potential that they are not using, and I'm pretty sure many people are conditioned to waste their abilities trying to sit pretty and secure.
I like sites like this because they give me all the more reason to laugh, heartily or cynically, at all the clever and brainrotten things people say. Also it's a good place to get some insights and jokes, and learn some facts and about how people think:)
My life and ambitions.
I would love to be a famous writer as a hobby. Not to be immodest, I just really wouldn't be able to hack it as a full time writer but I might be able to make one masterpiece if I applied myself to it sparingly. I'd want it to delve deep into fantasy with enlightening realist reflections of the human condition. I'd want it to be gory, funny, disturbing to the soul and heart , moving in it's dark majesty. Blah blah blah.
Mainly I want to be an artist. I've had a talent for drawing in detail and shaping things like metal and clay and legos to my will since I was capable of doing those things. I want to do things like metal sculpture, blacksmithing, graphic design, 3D rendering and printing, and possibly painting. Oh, wood sculpture and cutting design, I'm good at that. Comics, music, I want to become and expert at anything that brings my varied ideas to life.
Which brings me to theoretical physics and engineering, which I believe to be my higher callings.
And base jumping. I want to end my own life when I feel death is close at hand, by assassinating a very bad person by using myself as a human missile. I'll base jump out of a plane with an aluminum alloy dunce cap on and crash head on into my target. In case I miss, I'll be loaded with light weight highly volatile explosives.
I also want to get into extreme sports.
The things I could never live without.
Good friends, new experiences, nature, life goals, freedom of speech, bravery, puns, comedy, things to scribble on,
My favourite books, TV, music, movies and food.
Books in order of how I remember them: The legend of Drizzt series, Heart's Blood trilogy, Eragon series, [(Stephen King's) Dark Rivers of the Heart, Eyes of the Dragon, Brother Odd, Firestarter, Door to December] Dean Koonts' Ticktock, The Goosebumps series, Scary stories to tell in the dark, Bram Stokers Dracula, The Bloodline trilogy, The Cirque du Freak and Demonata series, The Necronomicon, The Sea of Trolls, House of the Scorpion, The lies of Locke Lamora, anything by David Clement Davies, Collectors of Edgar Allen Poe, East of Eden, Grapes of Wrath, most by Chuck Palanuik, big book of Philosophy, World History 2, Faust, Many others I really wish I remembered!
This is really time consuming, I'm terrible at picking favourites. I love a lot of movies. Recently I have really enjoyed (some for the hundredth time): Mulan, Quinten Tarantino movies, The Last Samurai, Horrible Bosses, Repo Men, Repo, Dawn of the Dead, American Psycho, 7 Psychopaths, In Bruges, Dragon: A Bruce Lee story, Anchorman: The Legend of Ron Burgundy, American Beauty, Dark Shadows, Trollhunter, The Chronicles of Riddick..
I watch a lot of stand up comedy and crime shows like Cold Case and Dexter. I remember watching something, I think it was cold case, when I was a kid. This one episode made me really creeped out by cigar cutters up to present day because of this psycho who used them to take living people's fingers. It traumatized me, and somehow I become fascinated with the kinds of things that have disturbed me in the past. I really enjoy The Walking Dead, and televised surgery.
I love anime like Fullmetal Alchemist and Brotherthood, Avatar, Steam Boy, FLCL, Naruto, DBZ, Soul Eater, Yuyu-Hakusho, Samurai Champloo!, Cowboy Beebop!, Trigun, Final fantasy....
I fucking love metal! All kinds except Hate Metal. I really appreciate lots of Industrial and punk (old punk), 90's alternative/punk, Faith No More, Classical, Orchestral, blues rock, psychedelic, classic rock, mathcore, some deathcore, very cherry picked dubstep, old electronica like DDR type stuff, Darkwave, some tribal and tantric, opera, Baroque and Victorian, Baroque core, Country like Tom Petty and Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, Jack White.. Most stuff by Maynard James Keenan, I love any music that speaks to me really. I'm not sure what exactly makes good music beside lyrics but for some reason there's somethings in every type of music that makes me have.. stirrings..Feelings... Sometimes It makes me feel as if I might begin to convulse my limbs in a rhythmic fashion.
The coolest places I've visited.
In my free time I like to...
I like to Draw, all kinds of things, I like to read and write, I like working with my hands, Playing guitar, I'm not that good though, Playing harmonica like a lonely train bum, Researching things, Practicing parkour, Playing games, Having good conversations, Writing epiphanies on sheets of paper and tossing them in heavily populated areas... Sleeping, eating. I love to cook and eat. I'm a food artist. I cook with my heart and soul, and then I eat my heart out.
"History can teach us a lot, but really the past is not as important as the future. I regret nothing, what's the point of regrets? If I could change anything I would only change the future. I can't go back in time to change things anyways because I lack a fucks-capacitor." ~ Me
"Look down on me and you see a fool; look up at me and you see a god; Look straight at me and you see yourself."~ Charles Manson
"Cogito ergo sum" ~ Rene Descartes
"Casus belli, in hoc signo vinces veritas voc liberabit" ~ Dani Filth
"It take the same amount of passion to love someone as it does to hate them." ~ Marilyn Manson
"God is in the TV" ~ Marilyn Manson
"If you strike me down I shall become more powerful than you could possibly imagine" ~ Obi Wan
“We build but to tear down. Most of our work and resource is squandered. Our onward march is marked by devastation. Everywhere there is an appalling loss of time, effort and life. A cheerless view, but true.” ~ Nikola Tesla
" If I'm the man then you're the man and he's the man as well, so you can point that fuckin' finger up your @@@@@@@@@$$!" ~Maynard James Keenan
" Tell me how he died!"...."I will tell you how he lived..." The Last Samurai
"Live is but a dream, drifting on a stream, consciously it seems" ~Serje Tankian
You should send me a message if you..
Want to talk. If you want to say anything really. I'll try to reciprocate. I enjoy conversations
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